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November 27th, 2009

Giving Thanks

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I'm sitting on our red loveseat, candles glowing on the coffee table. My netbook is propped on my knees and the cat's purring beneath them. A mug of peppermint tea sits within reach. I'm so glad to be home, with all of its familiar comforts.


I'm working on my edits. Painstakingly layering in more details about smaller characters. Giving the reader more time with Molly. Exploring more of her thoughts and observations and reactions. It's challenging, making sure the new bits feel organic and not just thrown in helter-skelter, a paragraph here, a sentence here, a little scene here. But I'm lucky to have someone who believes in my book and asks great questions.


Our Thanksgiving was not what we expected. We had to call an ambulance for Steve's dad last night. Steve spent hours at the hospital with his mom, while I waited anxiously at their house, phone in hand. His dad's tests came back okay, but there's some concern about the chest pains (the reason we called 911) and kidney failure. His dad's already had one heart attack and a number of surgeries. Steve and his mom are much calmer about all of this than I, who am terrified by anything to do with hospitals and medical emergencies. I'm glad that his dad isn't at any immediate risk, that he's being well-monitored by doctors and nurses. And I'm grateful that my husband loves me despite the fact that I'm not very stoic and steadfast sometimes.


I'm thankful, too, for all the wonderful books that provide a welcome escape in trepidatious times. For friends I can call or email when I need to vent my worries. For the modern marvels of wireless and texting and G-chat.


Hope you all had a very happy Thanksgiving.
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November 22nd, 2009

Lookit!

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So, my best friend has been at NCTE all weekend. She is a crazy-hardworking English teacher. Not only does she teach AP Lang and 9th grade English, she's also taking grad classes. And she's thinking about writing her thesis on heroines in YA dystopias! I have been texting her YA book recommendations in a geeked-out frenzy. She texted me when she was about to listen to Scott Westerfeld or Laurie Halse Anderson or Maureen Johnson. I was very jealous.

I have a new dream: that someday we'll go to NCTE together. She'll get to speak on a teaching panel, and I'll get to sign books! How much fun would that be?

In the meantime, lookit what she brought home!




You will notice that she has two copies of Gone by Lisa McMann and two copies of Linger. That is because one is for me! *squees* Is she not the bestest bestie ever? I'm also really, really excited for The Dark Divine and
Scones and Sensibility. Hooray for the Tenners!

Now I'm off to spend the rest of the day editing and reading, as Sundays should be spent. I'm enjoying As You Wish by Jackson Pearce, which is the 16th Debs book I've read this year. It's also book 83 on my 100-book reading challenge.

November 18th, 2009

'Tis the Season

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YOU GUYS! Cranberry bliss bars are back!



IT'S CHRISTMAS!

I have been having a grumpy day. Neurotic about edits, disconcerted by family news, general grey November gloom.

But this has kind of made my day. Soon it'll be time to buy a tree. To decorate our house for the first time. To send out our Christmas party invitation and stalk the Evite. To plan menus and buy gifts. To dither my way through the stationery store, buy Christmas cards, and get out my calligraphy pens.

How's your day going?
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November 17th, 2009

New York Adventure

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Steve, last week: Aren’t you excited for our trip to NYC? It’ll be an adventure!

Me: No. I do not like adventure.


This is true. I would love to be an impulsive, spontaneous, adventurous person, but I have come to accept that I am not. I like routine and home and knowing where things are. On the Meyers-Briggs, I am very, very J (INFJ). Travel, with its myriad uncertainties, is very anxious-making for me.


But our trip to NYC was great. We took the Bolt Bus, which I highly recommend. On the way up, I edited two chapters. On the way back, I took a nap and then caught up on my Google Reader. Buses with extra legroom and wireless FTW! Once in NY, we managed to navigate the subway without too much difficulty. It is totally different from the DC subway—older and grungier, but also cheaper!

My three favorite things about our trip were:


1) The Strand. I spent two hours browsing the YA section and ended up buying a dozen books, which Steve graciously carted around for the rest of the night. I bought a few Christmas presents, some $4 Francesca Lia Block books to add to my collection, and a few Debs books that I’ve been meaning to get, including Jackson Pearce’s As You Wish and a signed copy of Neesha Meminger’s Shine, Coconut Moon! Ooh, and I snagged a former review copy hiding in the basement of Kate Messner’s The Brilliant Fall of Gianna Z! So excited to dive into these.


2) Our tour guides/resident NY friends, Rob and Meg. Rob took us to the hilarious hipster zoo of Williamsburg for brunch. Plus he took us out for amazing Thai food with mock duck and to Barcade, where I played my very first arcade games at the ripe old age of 29. I sucked it at Ms. Pacman but I had a lot of fun. It was just generally fab to see Meg, whom I miss and am trying to convince to move back to DC. She stayed out with us until 4:30 in the morning even though she had to work a triple the next day at the Blue Man Group.

3)
The show! That’s right, the 5-hour play that I bitched about having to see? It was actually awesome. I have been to 2.5 hour plays that have seemed longer; I left feeling more energized than when I arrived. If you are in NY, check out The Lily’s Revenge at Here Arts Center. It's gotten great reviews. It contains feathers, zombie flower girls, a nightmare ballet about marriage, amazing heels, ukulele songs, an evil stepmother wedding dance, a curtain striptease by the god of nostalgia, and lots of sparkles. It is also a thought-provoking allegory about gay marriage that explodes gender roles. And did I mention that during the three intermissions, you can go downstairs and join the dance party in the dressing room?

Moral to the story: adventure will not kill me.

November 11th, 2009

Agent Notes

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I HAZ NOTES!
 
I got my first notes from my agent yesterday.
 
They are wonderful and challenging.
 
I loved the way he phrased thing as a list of questions. A few overall notes, things to bring out throughout the text, but lots of specific thought-provoking questions about what Molly is thinking here or why she trusts this person when it maybe seems like she shouldn't or whether she might show more alarm in this situation. He doesn't want me to cut or rearrange, just enhance what's there. Clarify character arcs. Give more information about Quinn, Lexi, Julien, and Claire. Let the reader really be there in the moment, inside Molly's head.
 
I am so excited to tackle this! I let it all marinate today while Hermy (my netbook) was being fixed. But tomorrow--oh, tomorrow I am going to dive back in. And I'm taking Hermy with me on the Bolt Bus to NY this weekend--hooray for 8 hours of round-trip potential revising! I think it'll be really fun. I cut a lot of Molly's observations and thoughts in my last draft because I was worried it hindered the pacing, but it seems I overdid it. I can't wait to go back through the manuscript and make these characters more vivid and unique. Add shading and specificity.
 
I am so, so grateful for this guidance. This chance to make it better before it goes out into the world on submissions.
 
My goal is to have the revisions finished by the end of Thanksgiving break, which I think is completely doable. It smashes my JoNo goal to write 45K on the sequel (I'm only at 17K) but when I set that goal, I didn't anticipate having an agent by now. So it's a happy sort of goal-smashing, and there's always December for that.

November 9th, 2009

November Theatre

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It's been awhile since I've done a theatre post.
 
We had the great good luck to see Sir Ian McKellen perform a one-night-only, one-man show at Shakespeare Theatre two weeks ago. He was amazing. Warm and funny and spontaneous. He did some Shakespeare, some poems, some Marlowe. He read from Roget's Thesaurus with stunning expressiveness. Recited a Beatles song and a storm warning chart. Really-truly, he could have read from the phone book and we would've all been appreciative. He also told stories about working with great theatre artists, but one of the most touching moments was when he talked about his work for gay rights, specifically how he advocated for a hate crimes line in the South African constitution.
 
We also enjoyed Full Circle, a Charles Mee play at Woolly Mammoth. I am not always a fan of experimental theatre. I am, I confess, sort of horribly literal. But Woolly has a gorgeous theatre space and they used it to maximum effect. The audience started off in a rehearsal room, traveled to the lobby, went into the theatre, back to the lobby for intermission where the action picked back up, and then into the theatre again but with a different seating configuration. And the acting was top-notch.
 
Saturday we saw Angels in America: Millennium Approaches by Forum Theatre. It was amazing. I'd seen a college production and a handful of directing scenes and the HBO movie but nothing compared to this. The acting was brilliant and nuanced. I'd never really connected with Prior before, but Karl Miller nailed the pathos of the character, the humor that is so vital to balance out all the bleakness of the play. Casie Platt is wonderful as Harper, too.  If you live in DC, definitely try to see this before it closes (November 21).  It's gotten great reviews and it's selling out. I'm sad that I'm probably not going to get a chance to see Part 2, Perestroika.
 
Steve had a reading of his play The Tall Tales of the Sisters of Ellery Hollow on Friday at Active Cultures theatre. It was delightful. It's a two-woman show and the narrative is lyrical and lovely. It's been over a year since I've read it, and this wasn't one I'd helped with too much; I totally forgot the ending, so I was on the edge of my seat along with the rest of the audience! I'm casting my vote for him to produce this one for CapFringe this summer. But he's already got two other potential projects in the works as well, so we'll see!
 

November 6th, 2009


I went through a period recently where I was in love with cupcakes. It probably had to do with the fact that I was working on a new project tentatively called Cupcake Cupid, which I have since put on the backburner. Now I think my allegiances have shifted. Maybe it's the upcoming Christmas season with its promise of cranberry bliss bars (so full of bliss!) and dozens of plump little sugar cookies. At any rate, for today's challenge, please put the following alphabetically-listed baked goods in order of awesomeness.
 
Brownies
Cake
Cookies
Cupcakes
Fruit bars (raspberry, lemon, etc)
Muffins
Pies
Scones
 
Like so: Cookies > Scones > Fruit bars > Brownies > Muffins > Cupcakes > Cakes > Pies
 
That's right, pies are very last on my list. And the traditional Thanksgiving pumpkin pie is at the very very bottom.
 
What's your hierarchy of baked goods look like?

November 4th, 2009

Writing Update

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I’m working on the sequel to Inheriting Garolass. I don’t know if it’s the smart thing to do. I’ve read advice from authors not to waste time working on a sequel for a book that hasn’t sold yet. I do have a few other projects on the backburner, things I'm excited to write about at some point, but the main flow of ideas is still for Molly and her friends and enemies. So that’s what I’m going with.

 

I’m still waiting for edits from my new agent, which has been a challenge in terms of patience. I’m so excited to hear in detail what he thinks of the book and where I can make it better and what his plan is. If I am this eager to hear from him—my heart rocketing into my throat whenever I get a new message in my inbox--I shudder to think how crazy-nervous I will be when the book does eventually go out to editors.

 

Anyway, I’m working from an outline for the first time ever and it’s been incredibly helpful. I have added a few unplanned scenes, but I like being able to look ahead and balance family vs dangerous politics vs romance. It's like working with a puzzle. Also, I’ve found that when I get stuck, unexcited about writing the next bit, it’s usually because I’m planning to write the wrong thing. That has happened twice now with a Molly-Bree conversation that I think will actually have maximum impact later.  

 

Ooh, and I found out something new about one of my minor characters this week! There’s a line about Claire that has stayed through five revisions in Garolass, an observation I thought was totally random. It turns out it’s quite telling, and the secret behind it provides her with a major motivation in the sequel. It was an exciting moment. My subconscious is so smart!

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October 31st, 2009

6 Things on Saturday/Sunday

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1. I had two peanut butter cups for breakfast. Happy Halloween! 
 
2. I am catching up on the awesome Morganville Vampires series by Rachel Caine. I finished Feast of Fools this morning and am now on to Lord of Misrule. I love these characters, especially Claire and crazy Myrnin. The action and the unique worldbuilding (I love vampires who are both sympathetic and genuinely fearsome!) make these books quick reads. This is book 80 for the year, so I'm on track to meet my goal of reading 100 books in 2009.
 
3. We just put together about 40 bags of candy: Reese's, Smarties, Snickers, M&Ms, and some kind of creepy gummy body parts.
 
4. I've never had trick or treaters before, really. Growing up, we lived in the middle of nowhere and would maybe get a handful of neighbors. Since college, I've lived in apartment complexes. (ETA: we got about 40 kids. Some of whom were not actually in costume. WTF? Also, some late-teen girls were either taking candy for themselves or feeding it to their little babies. Also-also, I ate all the remaining Reese's before sending the candy off with Steve to his rehearsal.) 
 
5. I am 1500 words away from meeting my end of October goal of 15K.
 
6. I'm not doing NaNo. I'm tempted, but I'm already 15K into Garolass2 and don't want to have to start something from scratch. And I'm expecting edits from my agent any day now. But I'm going to try to write at least 30K in November, using all the writing fervor for inspiration. And I'm cheering on all the brave souls who ARE NaNoing.

 
Edited to add: Okay, I'm a day late, but I hit 15K! The first four chapters are going off to a few early readers to see if I'm heading in the right direction. Today's 1700 words were inspired by Smarties and Sprite Zero.

October 30th, 2009

I have to admit, we haven't bought any Halloween candy yet. I was afraid if we bought it last weekend it'd be gone before trick or treaters arrive tomorrow. Especially if it involved caramel or peanut butter and chocolate. But in that spirit:

1. Twix OR Kit-Kat OR Three Musketeers?
 
2. Licorice: black, red, OR yuck?

3. M&Ms OR Reese's Pieces OR Peanut M&Ms?
 
4. Ringpops OR candy necklaces?
 
5. Skittles, SweeTarts, OR Smarties?
 
Are you eating candy today? What kind?
 
Bonus: What's your favorite discontinued, impossible-to-find candy?
 

October 28th, 2009

Favorite Characters

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I've read a bunch of awesomesauce books this month, and I found myself thinking, Ooh, this character would be on my list of all-time favorite characters.
 
Then: Do I have a list?
 
I guess I do now.
 
Favorite Female Characters
Scarlett O'Hara (Gone with the Wind)
Anne Shirley (Anne of Green Gables et al)
Deryn Sharp (Leviathan)
Katniss Everdeen (Hunger Games & Catching Fire)
Ruby Oliver (The Boyfriend List et al)
Honorable mentions: Hermione Granger, Scout Finch, Elizabeth Bennett
 
Favorite Male Characters
Henry Tilney (Northanger Abbey)
Peeta (Hunger Games & Catching Fire)
Atticus Finch (To Kill a Mockingbird)
Remus Lupin (Harry Potter series)
--Hmm, I can't decide btw Cabel (Wake) and Seth (Wicked Lovely)
Honorable mention: Oscar Banks (Candor)
 
I just read Leviathan and Candor, and reread To Kill a Mockingbird, so those characters are particularly fresh in my mind. But I think they're all valid, complex, interesting choices. 

Who would be on your list?

October 27th, 2009

New York, New York

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I'm going to spend a weekend in mid-November in New York. Steve wants to see a play written and directed by guys he met (and drank in the Owl Bar with) at Sundance. And I'm going along  'cause while a super-experimental four-hour play isn't necessarily my cup of tea (I love theatre, but four hours is a long damn play and there are clowns!) I haven't been to New York for...ten years? I think it has actually been ten years. For my high school graduation present, my dad sent me and one of my friends to see Rent on Broadway. Yikes.
 
Anyway. What should I see and do in New York? Where should we eat and drink? We'll be taking the Bolt Bus. We'll be staying in Brooklyn with our crazy friend Rob. There's the play Saturday night. That's....all I've got so far.
 
Also, is anyone going to the SCBWI winter conference? My bestie, who's writing her master's thesis on families in YA dystopian literature and is a major Libba Bray fangirl, has offered to accompany me and split the hotel cost. (Whee!) But I have never been to a conference before. Would this be a good one to start with?

October 23rd, 2009

Pumpkin pie OR apple pie?

 

Pumpkin soup OR butternut squash soup?

 

Pumpkin bread, zucchini bread, OR banana bread?

 

Pumpkin spice latte OR gingerbread latte?

 

Roasted pumpkin seeds: yay OR nay?

 

What other pumpkin-themed treats am I forgetting?

Are you carving a pumpkin this year?

 


Thankful Thursday

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Ooh, today is full of thankfulness!
 
  • For shiny new words. Last week I was at 3K. Now I'm at 10K. I'm trying to get into the habit of writing at least 1000 words a day most days.
  • For Dr. Wicked's Write or Die writing lab. I am so easily distracted by Gchat or Facebook or using the online thesaurus. I'm forever tempted to get up and fetch some more Coke Zero or some hand lotion or whatnot. And I will polish a paragraph to death--before I even know whether it's going to make sense and even stay. I've been setting Write or Die to Kamikaze for an hour and it's been really helpful in keeping me focused.
  • For my brilliant husband, who just read a pivotal ten pages for me. And then he grinned and I was all, "What's wrong?" and he said, "I think this is my favorite chapter you've written. It does exactly what you want it to do perfectly." Um. I wait for his feedback with squirmy nervousness because he really is critical, and he will not hesitate to tell me if something's not working. That is a highly-coveted compliment.
  • For Lady Gaga. I know I'm a little late to this, but seriously. I can't stop listening to this album. "Boys boys boys. We like boys in cars. Boys boys boys. Buy us drinks in bars. Boys boys boys. With hairspray and denim. We love them! We love them!" I can't stop! 
  • For my job. It's been kind of frustrating this week as I do a bunch of accounting, trying to reconcile book subventions and payments to translators from 2006. But I'm lucky to have a job in this economy.
  • For cheese. Yeah. I know, a little random. But I had a cheese danish this afternoon and cheesy risotto for dinner. Nom.
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October 16th, 2009

Friday 5

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1. Last weekend I made this amazing apple cake. This weekend I am going to bake my mom's chocolate-chip pumpkin muffins. Last weekend Steve made vegetable soup. This weekend I am going to make butternut squash and sage soup. I ♥ fall food.
 
2. I finished reading Leviathan last night and I ♥ it too. Definitely one of my favorite books of the year. It's such a wonderful old-fashioned adventure story, but with supercool steampunk elements. The illustrations are gorgeous. And I really connected with the characters, too, which is a must for me. I adored Dr. Barton, the clever-boots zoologist, and Alek, the brilliant pilot/sad boy/pompous prince. But most of all, I loved Deryn Sharp, the brave, trash-talking, swaggering girl who crossdresses to become a midshipman and fulfill her dream of flying. I think I shall adopt her favorite curse, "Barking spiders!" Anyway, you should read it so we can talk about it. Yes, YOU.
 
3. I finished the first chapter of Garolass book 2! I'm at about 4K and my minigoal is to get to 15K by the end of the month. Then I can get my little critique group to read the first four chapters for me and make sure I'm headed in the right direction. This progress depends in part on how extensive the notes from my agent are on the first book.
 
4. Said notes are supposed to be here by Tuesday. I am nervous and excited. I suppose this will prove that I do in fact have an agent, and it's not all some marvelous mirage.
 
5. Barking spiders, this weather is dismal. Where's the glorious blue October sky? Fortunately, I have a trifecta of awesome planned for this weekend. Tonight: Indian food and playing Rummikub with Steve. (He's teaching a high school workshop in DC today, so fingers crossed that goes well!) Tomorrow: Saturday-morning coffee/writing date and then a game night with friends and wine. Sunday: tea with my bestie and more writing time. Plus I'm finally reading Looking for Alaska!

October 13th, 2009

The more I think about my book someday being published and available for ranking, the more cautious I am about this sort of thing. Still, I want to be honest. Not every book is a 5-star read for me. That doesn't mean someone else won't enjoy it.
This is my Goodreads system:
 
5 stars: I unabashedly LOVED it and pimp it out to all my friends
4 stars: I really liked it and would pass it along if I think it'd be your cup of tea
3 stars: I liked it overall. (Sometimes books I categorize as 3s are fun reads but don't necessarily stick with me for whatever reason, or I like the characters but feel like the plot could use some work, or vice-versa.)
 
If I don't like the book--2 stars or less--I don't usually put it on Goodreads. There are some notable exceptions, like Emily's Quest by L.M. Montgomery. But it's pretty rare that I read a book I really dislike; I tend to pre-screen well. There have been only 2 or 3 this year. I have a physical shelf for books I haven't finished, but that's definitely not on Goodreads and that's a whole other subject.
 
I don't usually write Goodreads reviews, although I try to give shout-outs here to books I especially love. My friends and sisters and I talk books a LOT, and they often come to me for YA recs. In fact, it's really rare that friends leave my house without borrowing a book on the way out. I totally lose track of who has what. But that's why I put my YA shelves in the living room: I like sharing the books I'm most passionate about. And if my friends like the book, they often buy the next one from that author on their own. It also helps me get a good sense of my friends' reading habits, which comes in handy for birthdays and Christmas. I do love gifting books.
 
What about you? What's your Goodreads & book-sharing protocol?
 
(Btw, if anyone wants to friend me there, I'm Jessica Spotswood.) 

Laramie, 10 Years Later

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Tonight Steve and I went to see The Laramie Project: Ten Years Later, An Epilogue. The reading was produced by Arena Stage in DC, but it premiered simultaneously in all 50 states, Canada, Great Britain, Spain, Hong Kong and Australia. 
 
Today was the 11 year anniversary of Matthew Shepard's death.
 
I've dramaturged The Laramie Project twice--in undergrad in 2002 & in grad school in 2005. I sifted through pictures of Laramie and of Matthew Shepard. Lost myself for hours in researching the townspeople who became characters in the play. I read dozens of interviews and feature articles about his murder. I've seen the play probably twenty-five times between rehearsals and shows, but it never stops breaking my heart. It's an extremely powerful piece of theatre and a worthwhile conversation-starter.
 
The epilogue includes moving interviews with Judy Shepard--and with Matthew's killers, Russell Henderson and Aaron McKinney, who have two very different views of remorse for their crime. It follows the Wyoming legislature's unsuccessful attempt to pass a "defense of marriage" bill--and the University of Wyoming's struggle to pass same-sex partner benefits. It raises questions about what has changed in Laramie and across the nation in the last 10 years--and what hasn't. If you're curious, here are some snippets of interviews with a few inhabitants of Laramie.
 
At one point, the mayor of Laramie says, "Whether we have changed attitudes may be one thing, but we have certainly changed what is acceptable to express and to say."
 
In a New York Times article, Iain-Peter Duggan, a junior at the University of Wyoming who is gay, said, "If you walk around campus holding hands with another guy, you have to know that people are going to holler and yell at you. You just have to be smart." In the new Epilogue, resident Jonas Slonaker talks about how he and his partner have become adept at finding "safe spots" in their community.
 
The federal hate crimes act proposed to include crimes motivated by a victim's actual or perceived gender, sexual orientation, gender identity, or disability, still has not passed.
 
Same-sex marriage is only legal in 4 states and recognized by 4 more.
 
That is not enough. 
 
I really believe we can do better.
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October 8th, 2009

Guess what?

I have an agent!!!
 
I'm honored to be represented by Jim McCarthy of Dystel & Goderich Literary Management.
 
Honored and excited and a little stunned.
 
On Labor Day weekend 2007, I started writing this book. I put it on hold while I dramaturged a show. That spring, I wrote and rewrote and got feedback from friends. Last Fall I decided to change it from third-person past-tense to first-person present, which was a lot of work but totally worth it. I got more feedback, including notes from two awesome generous authors. I wrote a fifth draft and then tweaked that.
 
And finally, three weeks ago, I queried a few agents. I got some form rejections. I worried about whether my query sucked. Last Monday, I got a request for a full. Then this Monday, Jim emailed me and asked whether we could talk about my book. I called Steve and whisper-screamed a lot. I was at work and couldn't talk until 5, so I basically spent three hours google-stalking Jim and his authors and having a panic attack.
 
He called at 5:15 and told me he loved my book and offered representation. He said other lovely things about why he loved the book, but I can't really remember because I was totally freaking out. I had prepared for a revision request, not an actual offer. Also, I accidentally hung up on him. Either my phone dropped the call or I accidentally hit the "end" button with my ear while frantically giving Steve the thumbs-up sign. It was embarrassing but he was very nice about it. He told me a bit about himself and his process and more thoughts on the book. I asked some questions and we agreed that I would take a few days to think about it. Tuesday I emailed some of his authors and they wrote back right away with amazing, glowing recommendations. I also heard wonderful things through the Tenner grapevine. And that was enough to convince me. I am super-excited to be in the company of authors like Carrie Ryan and Richelle Mead, whose books I love, and authors like Mindi Scott and Phoebe Kitanidis and Michelle Rowen, whose books I can't wait to read. I accepted Tuesday and just mailed off the contract this morning. 
 
I had the BEST phone call ever with my mom and stepdad, who are normally not very demonstrative but put me on speakerphone and hooted and hollered. My mom reminded me that my grandmother would have been so proud and I had a totally emotional moment because I miss her so much and wish she was here but I also absolutely believe she knows. I also asked my mom if she was sure I wasn't dying because my heart was thump-thumping and I couldn't sit still and was that normal? She told me to chill out and maybe do some yoga. Instead I called some friends to share the good news, and then Steve and I got Thai takeout and watched Glee. (I've only seen the first 2 episodes so don't spoil me!)
 
I still can't believe it all happened so quickly. One of Jim's authors shared some of the enthusiastic things he'd written about me and my book, and I had a complete moment of disbelief. Like: OMG, maybe he read the wrong book and this is all some big crazy mistake! I had to remind myself that, no, we talked about Molly (my MC); it was definitely my book. But it's still crazysauce. I'm kind of walking around waiting for an anvil to fall on my head.
 
But I'm also really, really happy.

October 7th, 2009

Soup & Happiness

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I am in a nesty mood. And, no, I am not with child. I've been away for two consecutive weekends, and it's fall, and my throat hurts. I want to lie on the couch with my super-soft awesome pink blanket and read and drink green ginger tea and make soups.
 
Does anyone have any awesome vegetarian soup recipes? For once I'm not in the mood for baking but for warm fall comfort food.
 
I am thinking about making this Risotto Primavera Soup and this Warm Butternut Squash & Chickpea Salad this weekend.

I just spent an amazing weekend at my undergrad for a drama alum reunion. I listened happily to people talk about supporting theatre, making theatre, rehearsals, projects, plays, etc. I love theatre. Love seeing it and reading plays and thinking critically about them. I love that my husband is a playwright.

But it was nice to be there without regret. For a long time I beat myself up about my decision not to pursue a career in dramaturgy. But I didn't love it enough to make the necessary sacrifices. When it comes right down to it, I would rather spend my evenings writing and drinking tea and cuddling with the cat--or reading awesome inspiring books (like When You Reach Me  & An Abundance of Katherines which I just finished OMG). I didn't want to spend my days at work and my evenings at rehearsal, trying to build my resume and connections without pay or guarantee, seeing my husband when he wasn't at his own rehearsals or classes.

It took me awhile to be okay with that. Really awhile. But when my beloved former profs asked what I was doing, I didn't feel embarassed or guilty not to follow in their footsteps after all. 

And they seemed really happy for me. I think when you're doing what's right for you, what makes you deep-down glowy, it's evident.

That's my wisdom for the day. So...who has yummy soup recipes?


 

October 1st, 2009

Thankful Thursday

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It's been a rough week in some ways (more on that in another post), but it's been a lovely week as well, and I have lots to be thankful for, including:
 
* My husband. Yesterday was our 3rd anniversary. He bought me Odd and the Frost Giants, chocolate tea, and a Halloween cupcake kit; he cleaned the kitchen; he let me take a nap; he woke me up about 5 times because he knows I need to be "eased back into the world." We went to see Regina Spektor in concert, too, which was amazing. More importantly, he's that supportive and funny and bril every day, not just on special occasions.
 
* I got my first full ms request from an agent! I'm trying to set itsy goals, i.e. not "get an offer" but "get some feedback". After 3 rejections without feedback, I was starting to wonder if my query sucked, so this is reassuring.
 
* We are getting a kitten! My mom has two litters of strays on her front porch--7 two-week-old kittens and a little gray fluffball that's 4 weeks. I accidentally bonded with said fluffball on Sunday. I went toward the front porch expecting her to skitter away, but instead she meowed and came toward me. I sat gingerly on the step and she bumbled up and put her paws on my leg and let me pet her. Steve came over and was all, "Uh-oh." Yep. I accidentally fell in love. My mom is keeping an eye on little Phoebe; hopefully she'll stay healthy and safe until we can pick her up on Oct. 17. I hope that Monkey will like having a playmate; I've been reading up on how to best introduce them. I asked him last night if he was excited about getting a baby sister, but his "meow" was kinda noncommital. Still, she is super-cute. Who could resist this?

 
* It is October! October is my favorite month. :)
 
* I am investing in myself and taking a private yoga class tonight. I haven't done yoga for an appallingly long time--like six months--and it is going to kick my ass. But I'm excited.
 
* I just just two minutes ago found out that my lovely friend Laura & her husband are moving to Capitol Hill next month! Yay! More friends for game nights and walks around town and porch-drinking!

* We're going to Chestertown tomorrow! Steve is receiving an alumni award from our undergrad in recognition of his playwriting. It coincides with the opening of the college's shiny new theatre, and dozens of alums will be there. It's going to be a crowded weekend. Convocation ceremony, reception, dinner for honorees, toast at the alumni house in his honor tomorrow. Saturday there's a matinee and a picnic down by the river and I'm sure there will be other merrymaking. I can't wait to see so many old friends!

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